Another Dance into Darkness

The journey is a permanent voyage,

the distance far reaching

into a universe of the light and dark

of me

an ever increasing challenge

and delight.

I know my wish to be free

Free to love and be loved

Free to be me

Free to enjoy it

I feel the release of old barriers and bridges falling

each time the sky opens and expansion fills my wings

I step into new intoxicating territories

I allow myself to feel more, to be more

As I do, the illusion returns

maybe this is "The One"

maybe this time I´ll be free for good

Free from the hidden darkness of old pain, shame and rage.

I ignore the well know signs of contraction

until the curtain opens yet again on stuck scenarios

of commiseration, self pity and blame.

I dwell on festering wounds,

I am bound to the chains I created to hide

the power of my rage,

the bleeding hurt of my heart,

the crippling sadness in my soul.

Sticky webs pulling me back every time

I take another step to brake free,

from the learned me.

Could these inner cages be the origin

of prisons and cells made of walls and iron bars?

Perhaps

Aren´t we all prisoners

of ourselves?

So why continue to untangle

this array of old agreements,

resentments and personal warfare?

What lays beneath the leaded weight?

What makes this journey so enthralling

and exquisitely interesting?

The promise of me

Joyous

Powerful

Open

Loving

Real